He's Just Not that into You (Me?)

As I grow older and wiser, I can usually spot these flaky guys a mile away. However, I've recently become acquainted with two of these guys that I STILL can't figure them out! Well no, let me take that back. One of them has been a "friend" for years; the other is a new friend, who, coincidentally, reminds me of the first guy! They look alike, talk alike, laugh alike, act alike...you name it. Anyhow, I digress.

So, both of these guys and I have hung out, talked, become friends, etc. and I have kissed each of these guys. It hasnt gone further than that. Now is where things turn to dust.

Ok so, let me ask you, if you hang out with, and talk with a girl on a regular basis it means you like her, right? You like her so you kiss her. Right? You kiss her cuz you want to get closer to her, right? Um, wrong, apparently. As it turns out, I always seem to be the "go to" girl when things aren't going great in your relationship. You really like me, but you arent quite ready to break up with your girl yet. I mean, I guess I should be flattered, but ya know? Being second best isnt all its cracked up to be. I have learned a valuable lesson from these guys that I do deserve the best. That I do deserve your full love and attention. It has also become a lesson in how to deal with ego...sure, it is kind of an ego crusher to be put on the diss list, but then, with a little time to process, I do come to realize that they probably arent good enough for me in the first place if they have so much disregard for me and my feelings. Conceited? I dont think so. I think I'll go with smart and mature.

So, if Mr. Right IS actually out there, and you arent currently in a relationship, drop me a line. Until then, I'll keep having fun with Mr. Wrong(s) until you show up.